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Anyone else out there have a completely different parenting style than their spouse? We’ve read the same books, we’ve taken the same workshops, but when push comes to shove, we are very different parents.

This often frustrates me, for two reasons. The first is that my way is right, and any other way is wrong.

The second is that I hate seeing my kids sad. When they’re being the tiny little army of jerks that they are, and that’s always, and Eric yells at them — even if I was ten seconds away from yelling at them myself — my knee-jerk response is “don’t yell at those little jerks!! They’re my little jerks!”

See, I can make my kids cry. But anyone else makes them cry? You’re on my list.

My parenting style oscillates back and forth between gentle parenting and Mean Mommy, or what I like to think of as “Dr. Bailey” parenting, for any other Greys fans out there.

Meaning I’m here with all the empathy, until I’m not, and then I’m starting sentences with “you FOOLS better have a good explanation for this.” And then there’s just yelling and tears and threats to put them up for adoption.

If I had to guess, I’d say that walking in on me drafting up adoption papers for his children makes Eric bristle, the same way that him telling the kids he’ll give them something to cry about makes me bristle.

But as my good friend reminds me often — kids don’t need two of the same parent. Two different parents can be a good thing.

For starters, husbands and wives are very different on a core level. If you’re not sure what I mean, here’s an example.

Last weekend, we were getting ready to leave for a week away. My in laws are staying with the kids, in our home. On Saturday, we had the following conversation in preparation:

Me: Since we leave Monday morning, I’m to going to try and get Monday’s chores done today. So that’s laundry, cleaning the bathrooms, deep cleaning the kitchen, and mopping. Plus we should probably organize the cubbies, the pantry and the coat closet so your parents can find everything easily.

Eric: Cool. So is there anything you need help with inside? Otherwise I’m going to head outside and cut down the ferns.

Me: ….

….

…

This is how husbands and wives are inherently different. We’re scrubbing the floors that people will be walking on and they’re cutting down ferns that no one will see and we both firmly believe we’re being 10000% helpful.

Then, you have the unique differences in personality. Case in point, this morning.

Eric and I are in Santa Monica, and we walked up to Venice Beach this morning to find a Starbucks. On our way in, we passed a shopping cart full of garbage bags and throw pillows.

“Cute pillows,” I thought to myself as we walked past.

When we got inside, the owner of said cart was at the counter, getting some free sugar packets.

While we were waiting for our coffee, he went back outside where he struggled to get his cart down the flight of stairs. I ran outside quickly and asked “can I help you with that?” while reaching for the other end of his cart.

“Get the F*%# away!!! Don’t touch that!!! I can do it myself, I don’t need your f*%#ing help!!!” he yelled at me.

I promptly started weeping, and ran back inside to lick my wounds. I am still thinking about it now.

Eric, meanwhile, misinterpreted this exchange as the man needing more help than just mine, so he ran out to offer his services. The man gave him a similar speech, and Eric told him to go to hell, then got on with his morning and probably hasn’t thought about it since.

We are different.

And that is fine. That is good.

My kids need both the parent that cries when she sees them crying, and the parent that tells them to buck up and deal with it. They can see one parent in flight mode and one in fight mode and know that both are viable options.

All that said, don’t expect any parenting advice from us. We’re different, for sure, but we’re both still scratching our head and wondering if either of us is getting it right.

For example, this little angel has been awake at 2 am, every night the last month and a half.

“Should we let him cry?” we ask, half asleep.

“No, that will wake the other kids and then they’ll all be a mess.”

So, we bring him into bed and let him sleep in between us and I wake up at 6 am with his hand down my shirt, while Eric has long since left to sleep on the couch because Fitz won’t stop kicking him.

So now we have Eric walking in on me drafting papers to legally change his name from Fitzgerald to Oedipus. Is this helping him feel secure? Or will he hate Eric forever and have a sick, unhealthy obsession with me?

Time will tell. I’m obviously hoping for the latter because I need at least one child who wants to live with us forever.

Meanwhile, if you feel like you and your spouse are on completely different parenting pages, you’re not alone. Scrub those floors while he cuts down those ferns and know that your kids are better for it.

It’s been two years since I’ve posted last, so I’ll reintroduce myself here, even though my only readers are immediate family who already know me.

I’m a mother of four … four human kids, one Great Dane, one French Bulldog and a cat who was somewhat of an impulse purchase.

When I started writing this blog, I had one toddler and one baby. That toddler turns nine a week from Monday and while we’ve added two more kids and are therefore still somewhat in the toddler stage, I’m definitely entering a new stage of parenting.

It’s a stage where the state of my car, always somewhat embarrassing, has become an abomination, now that we all but live out of it on our way to and from activities.

I vacuumed this thing out on Sunday. It’s currently Thursday and it already looks like this. Somehow I vacuumed around those goggles and that sandal that have been in here since pool season, but my hands are either always too full to bring them in, or I just don’t care to. Hint: it’s the latter. The toddler loafer is stuck to the carpet by a lollipop.

My husband and I are in fact taking our first vacation without the kids next week, but that’s not what the champagne’s for. That’s for a cake I’m making tonight (oh I’m also a baker, but more on that in a later post where I lament about the 30 pounds I have to lose.)

The champagne and the beer are in the toddler’s car seat because the nectar of the gods needs to travel safely, and the floor is littered with partial pretzel nuggets because my children are absolute animals who cannot eat anything without 90% of it ending up on the floor, chair, their clothes, their hair, their face, my clothes, my hair, or my face. I’m not sure what I expected, but still having to wipe faces and hands at 7 and 8 was not it.

Somewhere under those seats are library books that will stay there until January when I will sell a kidney to pay the fines. Next to the library books it’s very likely there’s a sippy cup of milk I won’t find until June when it starts to get hot in here again and I can follow the inevitable smell to its source.

The kids have made a rope swing out of one of the seatbelts, and there’s an unidentified substance staining the ceiling.

In case it’s not obvious, we have decided to keep this car until the wheels fall off because I’m not letting these kids loose in a decent vehicle.

Another new thing about this phase of parenting was just discovered this morning as I prepped my kids for school picture day. Apparently we are beyond the age where honking my nose or making fart sounds can crack a natural smile, but not yet to the age where they can naturally smile on their own. Therefore, we are squarely here:

And here:

Other things to know about me is that four kids in, I still take nutrition very seriously.

I do offer him nutritious food, but he looks at it like this:

…. So pretty much the way you guys probably just looked at that picture of my car.

So. This is where I am, and I am back. I can’t wait to start writing here again more regularly — and I hope by sharing my parenting journey I can inspire you to feel much, much better about yours.

When I was 24, I had a crush on Josh Groban,

Feel free to stop reading. What can I say, the heart wants what it wants.

I had this fantasy that I’d go to LA (unlikely) run into him at a Starbucks, (even more unlikely) and that he’d fall instantly in love with me (most unlikely of all). Then he’d dedicate “You Raise Me Up” to me in concert and the rest would be history.

Then I met and fell in love with Eric, and I had this fantasy of a house full of kids and dogs. Now I’m here, in that house full of kids and dogs, and most of my current fantasies involve all the ways I can get back at my kids for the shenanigans they pull.

The first thing I’m going to do is find a small creature to live with us. Maybe a dog, maybe a cat, maybe a raccoon, maybe a feral neighborhood child. Then, when my teenage children try and go to the bathroom or take a shower, I will send this creature in with a list of demands. If they ask it to leave, I will make it return 45 seconds later. Every 45 seconds until they give up on their shower.

Next, I will go into their bedrooms somewhere between the hours of 2 and 5 AM. It won’t be every night, in fact I’ll stop just long enough for them to think it’s over, and then I’ll start again. On these trips into their rooms I’ll wake them up for important reasons, like the fact that my socks hurt my feet, or that my third tooth from the back feels funny.

Some nights I’ll switch it up, and instead of going into their rooms, I’ll just lie in my own bed and yell. When they finally come in to check on me, I’ll hit them with something profound like the fact that I heard a noise from my closet that I’m pretty sure is a Panda or a T Rex.

If it’s not the middle of the night, another option will be to walk in while they’re watching TV with their friends, and ask them to look at this spot on the inside of my lip, and is it a sore or is it food and what color is it?

I hope they develop an interest in cooking, and when they do, I hope they cook me a wonderful meal.

As soon as they set the plate down in front of me, I’m going to declare that it’s disgusting because I don’t like the way it looks or smells. If they ask me to try it, I will, but I’ll make sure to gag and spit it back out.

Then I’ll spend the next three hours complaining about how hungry I am and how there’s nothing to eat.

I plan to wet my pants when we’re halfway to an activity they really want to do, so we have to turn around, go home and miss the activity.

I will beg them to let me come to Great America with them and their friends, and then spend the whole time complaining about how tired my legs are from all the walking.

When they find a book they’re really into, I’ll run in and bat it out of their hands at four minute intervals. When they find a podcast they’re really into, I’ll take the opportunity to practice singing America the Beautiful at the top of my lungs.

I can’t wait. It’s going to be a glorious, glorious stage of life. Until then, I’ll turn on some Josh Groban, sip some wine, and wait for the first one of them to wake up tonight.

When I was younger, I opened my own massage parlor.

I didn’t know that “massage parlor” was synonymous with “brothel,” and I didn’t know that the balloons I cut out of cardboard to glue on my “Melissa’s Massage Parlor” sign looked rather … spermish. I just knew that $.25 for a 10 minute back massage and $.10 for a five minute foot massage was going to earn me that Ford Taurus I wanted as soon as I was 16.

I also couldn’t tell time, which worked out well for my family members who swore it had “only been four minutes.”

Now that I’m on the other side of the equation, I stretch out time the same way — though I do pay more. Call it inflation or desperation, but yesterday I offered Alex $5 to walk on my back.

He was busy getting set up for this picture to send to an astronaut, so he passed up the opportunity.

Which made me re-think his allowance – I would have done just about anything for $5 as a kid. Maybe if I start making him pay for his own food?

It also made me re-think my life. Begging a five year old to walk on my back … how did I get here? In my head, I went through the spa day I had treated myself to the day before.

It had started with steaming my face over the Insta hot faucet while I made my cup of crappy instant coffee. My pores were clean and I was (kind of) caffeinated. Two-fer.

Next, I positioned my feet over the raised threshold between the kitchen and mudroom while I bounced Fitz on my hip to get him to burp. Voila — foot massage!

And, when the “burp” turned out to be “projectile spit up,” I got to treat myself to a quick Kirkland baby wipe cleanse before I ran out the door to drop Lottie at preschool.

After carrying Fitz in the bjorn all morning, I tried rolling out my back on a tennis ball. But Yoda took this as an invitation to play and I ended up rolling out my back on Yoda.

He spent the rest of the day in this position, which has me worried that my free back adjustment might end up costing me $690 in a canine chiropractic adjustment.

This is what “self-care” has become. There was a time not so long ago that I’d drop $90 on a very unpleasant wax, just to avoid having to shave my legs for a week. And that’s when I had actual time in the shower to shave!

Now my showers are timed by a mob of angry children demanding more waffles, a channel change, more waffles, justice for the sibling who was looked at wrong, more waffles, someone to wipe their butt, and MORE WAFFLES WOMAN!

And these if I happen to have a spare $90 lying around, it goes to an Instagram Ad neck pillow that promises sleep like never before, or organic melatonin gummies for that mob of children, which also promises sleep like never before.

I don’t really have a point, except that Christmas is coming up and if Sweet Baby Ray happens to be reading this, a gift card to an actual salon wouldn’t be unappreciated.

In the meantime, hit me up with your at-home self-care tips. Because the wheels are really coming off over here at Melissa’s Massage Parlor.

Everyone has a favorite child. I’m certain of it, the way I’m certain that one of my children will have a sudden bout of irritable bowel syndrome three minutes after I’ve cleaned the the toilets.

I don’t think the favorite is always the same, I think it’s whoever is easiest for the parent at that particular time. Still, it’s not something a good parent should admit.

I keep the current favorite child status stashed in the part of my brain where I keep the things I’m ashamed to admit. It has some pretty disgraceful companions up there, like the fact that I often* eat that special treat one of the kids is saving on the counter and then tell them the dog did it.

*often = all the time. Absolutely all the time.

Or that sometimes I’ll just throw away a toy that’s been on the floor for a week because I’m too lazy to go find the set it belongs to.

Or that I think they were homely as babies.

Tell me that one’s not just me. That I’m not the only parent to have that moment where you look down at your infant and hear Kevin McCallister saying “Buzz, your girlfriend! Woof!”

Most often this happens to me when I’m looking back at baby photos of my kids who have since grown into the features that made them … awkward … as infants. Like this picture of my daughter, who has grown into a beautiful little girl but in this baby photo bears a striking resemblance to Junior Sinclair.

Or this one of my son, who I happen to think is the cutest baby in the history of babies, but who also looks a little* like Quasimodo when he sleeps with his eyes open:

*a little = a lot. Like 110%.

I have a theory that the one you think is the most awkward is your secret all-the-time favorite. Like “yeah he looks like a baby falcon, but he’s my baby falcon.”

And there you go. Sunday night’s reminder that if you’re feeling like you blew it this weekend, if you’re feeling like an awful parent, at least you didn’t just tell the world* you thought your babies were ugly.

*the world = five readers. Maybe less.

Somewhere out there, there are parents who never lose track of their kids. Those parents don’t impress me. They’re not my people. The parents who do impress me are the ones who, when they do lose track of their kids, are able to describe in detail what the kid is wearing, right down to the socks.

I couldn’t any more tell you what Evelyn was wearing this morning than I could tell you what she was thinking last week when she walked right past the bathroom to go pee outside. If I lost her, I’d be screwed. I couldn’t tell you what she was wearing. I couldn’t tell you if her birthmark is on her left or her right hip. The part of my brain that keeps track of those details atrophied when she was born. It disappeared along with my pelvic floor muscles.

Lottie would be easy enough to describe, even without specifics. I’d just tell someone to look for a little girl in a fancy dress and superhero shoes.

As for me, if the kids ever lose me in Costco — rather, if they fail to see me tuck and roll under the pajama table for a quick power nap — describing me to whoever they find to help will be a cinch.

“My Mom’s name is Melissa. She’s wearing a hooded jersey flannel she’s been in since 2014, and she looks like Charlize Theron. In Monster.”

“Oh yeah, I saw her,” they’d say. “She’s the one who took her baby out of the cart to make room for another cheesecake.”

The problem (there’s only one?) is that if I don’t get dressed immediately, I don’t get dressed at all. I walk downstairs in my pajamas to make coffee and let the dogs out, and suddenly I’m making breakfast, cleaning up the breakfast, packing lunches, packing snacks, filling water bottles, finding lost shoes, looking through the take home folders I should have looked through the night before, brushing hair, brushing teeth, wiping butts, changing diapers, listening for the school bus, waving for the school bus to please wait just a minute longer, forcing crying kids onto the school bus, buckling a 3-year-old and baby into the car, kenneling the puppy and finally taking a sip of that coffee. Next thing I know I’m getting out of the car to walk Lottie into preschool when I look down and remember I’m wearing Fila sweats and Crocs.

The worst part about this is that I’m still on the mail lists for my former favorite retailers, and they like to taunt me.

Talbots, (because if I’m going to look like I’m 60 I may as well dress like it) sends me catalogs with pictures like this.

“Get outside in terry shorts,” they say. “Take a carefree bike ride.”

Once upon a time, I liked to bike too. Probably in terry shorts. But now my carefree bike ride looks more like this.

I’m a pack mule. And pack mules don’t wear Talbots terry cloth shorts, they wear Fila sweats and Costco brand scuba jackets, because they need all the pockets. All the time. For all the snacks. This keeps the hands free for carrying all the bikes and scooters their kids swore they’d ride the while way themselves.

Someday I’ll get back into real clothes. Maybe even more than one outfit a week (no promises). But for now, I’m easy for my kids to identify. And that’s all that matters.

I’m fairly certain the five regular readers I have all know me personally. But, in case you don’t, I am currently raising four kids under the age of 7, and doing my best to remember to feed a Great Dane and a French Bulldog at least once a day.

Ever since kid #2 came along, spending time in my house has been peaceful in the way that curling up inside a snare drum is peaceful. It is eardrum-piercing loud in here.

For the last few years I’ve been running a small custom cake business out of my home. Usually I leave the finished cakes in my garage fridge, to be “picked up at your convenience,” aka “to be picked up when I’m gone so you can’t hear me screaming at my spawn to stop screaming.”

Sometimes my plan falls through, however, and a client will come to pick up a cake when all of my creatures are home. This goes one of two ways. The first is when I fail to see them as they’re pulling in, and they end up at my door. This scenario is less than ideal. As they cross the threshold into my kitchen, their eyes are inevitably drawn to my naked firstborn, who has chosen to leave the bathroom and wipe her butt IN THE KITCHEN because she’s the child that can’t stop talking to me for anything. At anytime.

Next their eyes rest upon the Great Dane who is busy cleaning the table with her sizable tongue.

And then I turn around, holding their cake out like a gift, with the Frenchie strapped to me in a baby carrier.

These clients are generally the ones who don’t place repeat orders.

The second scenario is slightly better, and this happens when I see their car pulling in. The Great Dane is quite helpful in signaling their approach, and by the time I’m out the door, cake in hand on the stoop, she’s towering over me on the other side of the door, foaming at the mouth and making noises you’d usually have to go to a shuttle launch to hear.

These clients are more inclined to order again, but as naked kids 2 and 3 streak past the door trying to convince the other dog to be Sven in their nude remake of Frozen 2, I am asked something along the lines of “How do you do it?”

I have an answer for these curious minds in my back pocket, and that answer is “not well.”

Exhibit A.

If you haven’t seen it yet, I’ll give you a hint. Shoes. This was a fashion choice I didn’t notice until we arrived at her school this morning, and when questioned she told me she couldn’t find the match so she just put on the next shoe she could find.

I can tell you exactly where the match to the one shoe is — on the roof of their playhouse. I’m pretty sure the other match was thrown away when I was channeling my inner Marie Kondo and decided that constantly picking up little shoes doesn’t bring me joy.

The other answer I give — and I’m hoping I’m not the only work-from-home Mom to say this — is that since the middle of 2018 I’ve been coparenting with YouTube.

And I’ll tell you what, while I am generally too busy (that’s a synonym for Lazy right?) to be the crafty, educational and outdoorsy parent that I set out to be, YouTube picks up the slack.

Their current obsession is two brothers from Indonesia. Or maybe it’s Minneapolis. I know nothing, other than that these two brothers are usually shirtless and digging underground water slides in the jungle, or building four-story structures out of vines.

There is some sort of music involved, but as far as I know there is no “hey kids don’t try this at home” type of warning.

Fast forward to yesterday, when I’m in the kitchen meal prepping for the week and Alex comes in with a bowl full of leaves and asks me to melt them for him them in the microwave.

At the same time, Evelyn comes in wearing rubber gloves and asks me for a rock she can use to grind mushrooms.

The first thing I asked was if these were the kind of mushrooms that would taste good sautéed in butter or if they were the kind that were going to cause her to see Jesus in her bike helmet.

Because from the look on her face, it seemed like she’d maybe already gotten into some of the mushrooms.

She didn’t get my reference, which made me feel like a good parent in that she hasn’t discovered that side of YouTube yet.

As it turns out, they were using the “melted” leaves and the mushrooms to make paint. Paint to be used on the water slide they’re planning to dig in the backyard.

I immediately ripped off my apron, put Alex’s leaves in the microwave, handed Evelyn the biggest rock I could find and asked if I could please be there when they asked my actual co-parent if they could dig a waterslide in the yard he seeded three times this summer.

Which takes me back to my original “how do you do it” answer of “not well.” Feel free to follow me for more parenting tips.

I love food. Not like a normal “well this is delicious” love, but LOVE love. Like Noah loves Allie in the Notebook love, like “say I’m a bird!” love and “If you’re a bird, I’ll eat that bird” kind of love.

Forty-five minutes into my first date with Eric, he told me “I’m more of an ‘eat to live’ person, not a ‘live to eat’ person.”

Well, I thought. That’s probably it for us then. I was about to excuse myself to the bathroom where I could sneak out the window, but then the waiter stopped by and Eric ordered a whiskey on the rocks, and I thought I’d at least give him another ten minutes.

I’m glad I stayed, and luckily he has so many amazing and endearing qualities that I can look past his lack of culinary appreciation. So here we are nine years later. With four kids. You know who else eats to live and doesn’t live to eat? Kids.

My niece Annie is probably the only person under 8 who appreciates food as much as I do. Unfortunately for me, I don’t live with Annie.

What does this mean? It means that on Monday, my menu board looked like this:

I can say with 200% certainty that this menu won’t change until January.

See every fall I get this burst of inspiration to start cooking healthy meals again. I say ‘again’ because I get that same burst of inspiration at the beginning of summer when I think of all the fresh produce that will be available to me.

Then I remember that my minions don’t eat fresh produce, and that any fresh produce I invite into my home will die of neglect three weeks later . And that I somehow have even less time for cooking in the summer than I do during the school year, and so my kids end up eating nothing but Uncrustables, salami, cheese sticks and whatever they can find under their car seats on the way to the pool.

So then fall comes, and I have more time, and it’s soup and comfort-food season, and I get all inspired again.

But somehow every year I forget that I’m still cooking for my same eat-to-live husband and kids, and that not one of them will join in my appreciation of autumn veggie grain bowls or Kung Pao cauliflower. And as much as I love to hear “I don’t like this it’s gross” before the food even touches the table (from my kids) or “I struggle with the texture” after one bite (from my my husband), I usually end up throwing in the towel by September 15th.

I have very few pictures of my children smiling while eating, but the ones I do have sugar in common.

Exhibit A:

Exhibit B:

Exhibit C

If I had taken a picture of my kids during dinner on Monday when I served them the grain bowls, it would have looked more like this:

Or this.

So here we are. I haven’t changed the menu board for this week because I have a feeling the roasted veggies with green harissa sauce that I’m planning for tonight will go untouched and that by tomorrow I’ll be serving a variety of Cheerios.